I first know her starting this year when i was taking care of her class and she was my class angkat for 2month.=] I was so happy to know her coz she was my dream girl that i have been dream of. this also makes me so excited to wait for tuesday and thursday because i could see her.
But before this i realised she been looking at me for many times her.
Every time i go to school i will get very excited because of her. and when we sees each other she would smile and greet me with full joy. It was that smile, so cute that makes me so happy.
Most of my friends knows about me liking E because i told them and i dont feel good if i didnt see her a day because i never feel this strong liking feeling towards a girl before and she the girl that could make my heart beat every time i see her and talk to her.
I also realised she loves to smile so i ask her friends if she is a kind of person who love to smile? And YES she does and she never get angry before=].
So after that we started chatting true msn and phone texting everyday. Even if one day without seeing her makes me feel un easy and i would start missing her alot d.
BUT one day i realised that i am competing with a few boys from her form who llikes her too and this really makes me feel angry and sometimes depress. It SUCKS TELL YOU!! because every time i hang out with her this guy who is her class monitor keeps stealing her away from me!! Mudafucker!! and when im talking to her she will give more attentions to this guys in her form. So firestuck shit weh i tell you!!
I know i just know her this year and we dont know each other well yet and those boys in her form is closer than her.
lately a few month ago i confess to her i told her that i love her alot. But she just say ook.. and walk of.....Y!!??? and i was so scared that time so i start avoiding her for sometime
I also shared this with my tuition teacher about my problem about her. My teacher told me to give her time to think. So i agreed.
Then a few days later this guy add me in facebook and telling me to stop everything that im doing with her coz he likes her alot. I was like WTF?? then i when to ask her E what up between her with that boy?? She then told me that they were just close friends. and all so i felt relieves...
Then suddenlly i realised that she have no interest in me at all and was treating me more like her brother than someone she like i got sad. And It was PBSM camp this makes me more depress that I am so desperate for her love That i just ignore her because i knew her secret about me and i didnt dare to talk to her.
It was torturing as i HAVE PUT ALL MY EFFORT TO GET E BUT SHE DONT LIKE ME AT ALL!!!
Y!? So one day i decided to go straight forward towards her and tell her "so E you do know i like you rite?" ya.... ''So do you like/love me or not? and If you are not interest i can just move on and we could be friends forever!?'' then it bacame i silent moment............... as she was stun by my words But in the end E just told me "could i not answer this question??" I was too pissed so i said heled her answer the question by saying NO and she dont want me k fine have fun and bye.
E than felt sad for wat just happen and she is worried that we will be enemies forever. So i was so hurt inside that i turn back and promise her that i would treat her as i treat her and i would never ignore her coz i love you..and we live life as usual together although she has rejected my love...=[
And so time Past and we have grown apart as i remember that i told E to promise me that she would wait for me till PMR is Over .
From that day onwards we Kinda stop talking and meeting each other completely and all I miss E alot as she was my one and only person that could make me stop swearing and doing stuff that iis bad to people...
and now It exactly one more month till PMR and i have been gaining alot of weight and life have been very stressful then.....
It stills hurt inside but now coz the feeling for her just wun go....
Depress boy=[...
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